City of Life and Death

iliyi说他不想看这部电影，因为不想自己反日情绪失控，于是我便有点犹豫了。我有学过历史，我有认真地参观过南京大屠杀纪念馆，尽管我没有经历其中， 那些画面和片段却是会永远刻入脑中。所以，看《南京！南京！》就是看一部已经知道结果的小说，虽然选取了不同人物去刻画，我们都知道他们最终的结果。画面 没有想象中震撼，情感也没有意料中激动，只是那几个与被历史大车轮碾碎的人物却让我看到有种新的希望。
姜老师死了，却换来两个生命的自由

Here Comes India, again!

Have been back from this "filthily annoying yet ridiculously incredible" country for almost 3 months, but I am just like many of the people who suffered from intensive nostalgia, this time it's India-wise. Randomly viewing FB and found an interesting note from Maria, so I have decided to posted it here. It's still unknown why people can be so annoyed in India yet they still love it, but it is sure that whoever survive in that country can easily survive in 90% of other countries, yay!!

Here comes the note:

When I came to India, I never thought I would:

1. Lose two debit cards in less than six months and have to make friends with Western Union
2. Realise that ‘What’s up?’ is one of the most nonsensical ways of greeting anyone ever
3. Develop an intense dislike for the word ‘random’
4. Not iron any of my clothes even once
5. Wee in the desert or in fact…
6. Go for a one or a two anywhere that didn’t classify as a ‘Western style’ toilet and definitely that didn’t involve toilet paper
7. Become even more addicted to tea than I was in England
8. Up my sugar intake per cup from 1.5 to 3.5 teaspoons (uh oh...)
9. Not learn to cook anything Indian (unless ginger tea counts)
10. Suffer for non-too-extensive but testing periods without running water, light, gas and a working fridge (luckily not all at once)
11. Only blow-dry and straighten my hair once in five months
12. Break my camera and be able to blame it on a camel
13. Have to melt buckets and risk mild electrocution just to heat water for a bath
14. Have to shower in the company of cockroaches (hardly 'Joe's Apartment')
15. Miss plastic bags so much (they are banned in Chandigarh) – the thrill I get when I see one now may cause problems when I get back home…
16. Actually feel happy when it starts to rain
17. Have to live in a house where things ‘go bump in the night’
18. Come to know a club with a cheesy name like ‘Score’ – makes for lots of one-liners (Are you going to score tonight etc…)
19. Be preached at to convert to Christianity by an Indian whilst traveling in a rickshaw (or indeed at all!)
20. Find out that it’s possible to have fantastic arguments with rickshaw drivers, even when they don’t speak English and my Hindi is pitiful – largely with the help of mime and dramatic tones of voice – and WIN
21. Live in a house that had a genuine cat burglar

But I’m so glad that I did:


1. Name and love a stray dog that now lives on our doorstep (I’d bring her home but Dad told me if I did he’d call me ‘Rabies Girl’)
2. Manage to have a full leg wax for only 120 rupees (less than two pounds!)
3. Find the best cakes and pancakes and tasty stuff in a café run by an Indian who studied European pastry-making methods in Australia and consequently…
4. Discover Nik’s ‘Special Power Breakfast’
5. Ride a camel
6. Start a personal project I’ve been wanting to do for a long time
7. Actually realize I could interact with and actually be loved by small children (small children were previously a phobia – I could often be heard saying, ‘I’d rather have a puppy any day’)
8. Meet more than one person who is similar to and understands me, regardless of age and the British/Indian difference
9. Realize that being British and especially having a British accent may not actually be that bad :D
10. Eat lots of chicken but also realize that vegetables can be quite tasty (and this from the girl who once said a meal could not be complete unless it contained meat!)
11. Manage (thanks Facebook!) to keep in regular enough contact with my best friend, who despite the distance, was still able to make me laugh and feel loved and comfort me on a bad day
12. Find out that I’m a lot tougher than I thought I was
13. Go to the cinema for about one twelfth of the price of the cinema in England
14. Finally throw my Converse away and get new ones! I think everyone I know in England will cheer if they’d seen the state they were in even before I left…
15. Realize what I want and what makes me happy
16. Have a dream and make it come true and…
17. Celebrate the New Year on a rooftop in Jodhpur realizing just this – that I was in my dream… and knowing now that maybe my other dreams are not as out of reach as I think…

In the Exhibition

左一女于背景男有那么一点相像

好学

很喜欢这些被小鸟围困的十二生肖

最后让自己小出个镜

Grass Mud Horse

Take a glance of the very popular animal in China nowadays, Grass Mud Horse
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Meet the Grass Mud Horse (草泥马), a rare animal that has become phenomenally popular in the past month.

The animal, whose name sounds like a common curse (操你妈), is the most famous of the Ten Legendary Beasts of Baidu, non-existent animals that were inserted into Baidu's user-editable encyclopedia. Although the majority are juvenile puns for curse words or genitalia, the collective editing process did manage to come up with a few clever descriptions.

Here are the rest:

• The Dafei Chicken (达菲鸡): A strange bird that likes exercise. (打飞机, slang for "masturbate")
• The Chrysanthemum Silkworm (菊花蚕): A silkwork that feeds on chrysanthemum flowers instead of mulberry leaves. (菊花残, an insult that means something like "bugger")
• The Midge Butterfly (雅蠛蝶): An exceedingly rare creature only found on the Tibetan plateau. (From やめて, Japanese for "stop it"; via imported porn)
• The Weishen Whale (尾申鲸): During his maritime adventures, Zheng He discovered this creature was hunted as the raw materials for women's underpants. (卫生巾, "sanitary napkin")
• The Jiba Cat (吉跋猫): A creature that lives in a dark, damp environment and competes for food with the White Tiger. According to historical records, the Jiba Cat flourished during the reign of the Zhengde Emperor. (鸡巴毛, slang for "pubic hair")
• The Qianlie Crab (潜烈蟹): A legendary crab that once stopped up the Grand Canal. (From 前列腺, "prostate")
• The Crying Paddy Goose (吟稻雁): In the Kangxi era, a large goose dove into a certain field, damaging it and causing the local farmers to come down with a strange sickness. (From 阴道炎, "vaginitis")
• The Franco-Croatian Squid (法克鱿, scientific name "Vai-te Foder"): A fierce species of squid originally inhabiting Europe and the Americas. (From the English-language curse "Fuck you")
• The Puremen (鹑鸽): A rare bird found only in Sichuan and Hunan; formerly found in the area that is now the Republic of Yemen. (From 春哥, a nickname used for Super Girl winner Li Yuchun among fans who claim, whether sincerely or ironically, that she's a man. Their catchphrase is 春哥纯爷们, "Brother Chun is all man", which is where Yemen comes in)

And finally, in a nod to the editors of the encyclopedia, there's the Stork-Cat Ape (鹳狸猿) that inhabits Baidu County in Lanzhou. This entry pokes fun at Baidu administrators (管理员) who continually spar with the online pranksters and who ultimately deleted all of these entries.

Although the Ten Legendary Beasts have been wiped from Baidu, the Grass Mud Horse lives on in Photoshopped images (the cute cousin to the Alpaca turned up at the CCTV fire) and videos.

Here's the "Song of the Grass Mud Horse," a spot-on parody of a contemporary children's songs:

For lyrics and analysis, see China Digital Times.

Another clever parody uses the familiar format of Animal World (动物世界), a popular CCTV program, to introduce the Grass Dirt Horse and its habitat.

But fun with Baidupedia is not entirely about dirty words. For a different level of satire, check out the now-deleted entry for revolutionary hero Wei Guangzheng (伟光正, taken from 伟大, 光荣, 正确, "great, glorious, correct"):

Wei Guangzheng

Comrade Wei Guangzheng is a superior product of natural selection. In the course of competition for survival, because of certain unmatched qualities of his genetic makeup, he has a great ability to survive and reproduce, and hence Wei Guangzheng represents the most advanced state of species evolution.

Here is the evolution of Wei Guangzheng's thinking: Since the day of his birth, comrade Wei Guangzheng established a guiding ideology for the people's benefit, and in the course of connecting it with the real circumstances of his beloved Sun Kingdom, a process of repeated comparisons that involved the twists and turns of campaigns of encirclement and suppression, his ideology finally realized a historic leap forward and generated two major theoretic achievements. The first great theoretic leap was the idea of leading a handful of people to take up arms to cause trouble, rebellion, and revolution in order to build a brave new world, and to successfully seize power. This was the "spear ideology." The second great theoretic leap was a theory, with Sun Kingdom characteristics, in which Wei Guangzheng was unswervingly upheld as leader and the people were forever prevented from standing up. This was the "shield theory." Under the guidance of these two great theoretic achievements, comrade Wei Guangzheng won victory after victory. Practice has proven, "Without Wei Guangzheng, there would be no Sun Kingdom." Following the road of comrade Wei Guangzheng was the choice of the people of the Sun Kingdom and an inevitable trend of historical development.

Comrade Wei Guangzheng endured a bitter struggle for survival. In his struggles with natural conditions, he climbed mountains and trudged through plains, expressing with an iron will a legendary story of pathos that continues to impress his posterity. In struggles with heterogeneous individuals, he engaged in a long-term fight with the reactionary government of the time and was ultimately triumphant. In his struggles with individuals in his own group, he cast out the cow devils and snake spirits that organized internal reactionary activity, and dealt them harsh punishment. This is the reason why comrade Wei Guangzheng could continue to survive: he fit perfectly with the three main factors of natural selection.

In the harmonious environment that comrade Wei Guangzheng himself constructed, mates were plentiful and there were no natural enemies, so Wei Guangzhengs could multiply quickly. Their numbers swiftly increased. Today, Wei Guangzhengs inherit the advantages of their Wei Guangzheng ancestors, and also attempt various innovations. For example, many Wei Guangzhengs use their unmatched power to amass money, setting records that are continually broken. Of course, evolutionary principles mean that there is also mutation, as when, following his leadership of a handful of people to take up arms to cause trouble, rebellion, and revolution and to seize power, Wei Guangzheng began to detest "a handful of people"....

The reason for this mutation may be due to errors in genetic transmission during the period of the second leap of Wei Guangzheng Thought. It is said that mutation frequently causes cells to function improperly or even die, or could lead to cancer. Yet at the same time, mutation is a motivating factor for the evolution of species: sudden changes that are less than ideal will be naturally discarded, while beneficial changes will accumulate. In this way, we see that mutations directly affect the evolutionary direction of Wei Guangzheng.

Update: Our friends from the World of Warcraft boards on Baidu's BBS have stopped by for a visit (草泥马被国外知名媒体报道 WOW吧名扬海外了).

Links and Sources

• Tianya repost (Chinese): The world's four greatest mythological creatures
• Leitie (Chinese): Ten greatest mythological creatures on Baidu Baike
• Wei Guangzheng entry via Big Window
• Caonima image via Can't leave you
• China Digital Times: Song of the Grass Dirt Horse

Xichong, Shenzhen

深圳西冲 Shenzhen

see the little red knot on her head, a sign of CNY

a touch of peace underneath my running vein

silly thing

real bubble fish

I dance like a ballet dancer (uhhhh)

From Diwali to CNY

CNY can stand for Chinese Yuan (the money) or Chinese New Year, this year, it stands for Chinese Niu Year (Niu=Cow in Chinese).

I am so happy to be home for the new year since it really is the biggest festival here, try to imagine, the train station of Guangzhou delivers 800,000 passengers a day a week before the big day, which means we evacuate a whole Chandigarh in one day, so you guess how big the festival is. It is an event for which people would pay double the price just to get a single ticket home, even when he needs to stand on the train for some 20 hours.

Holi is big, Diwali is bigger, but I can say Chinese New Year is even more, in terms of size. Even though, I always let go of my mind back to those days when we play holi in Vikram's big house and try to duck down from the eggs on the street, also those days when we had a big dinner in Jodhpur under the fort, sipping beer and enjoying the Rajasthani dance. Comparatively, India is far more disorganized than home, but the magic is no matter where you are now, you will still miss those days when you stay in a crappy hotel, pinch your nose when you walk pass a big pile of shit and garbage or running away from a river of auto-rickshaw, sometimes I think, it's amazing because of the tradition and the consistence of keeping it.

So Chak De, Bharat!!!

A Bike Trip

sorry guys I was not able to update here since there seemed to be some problem connecting Blogger in China, but anyways now it works well.

Right now I am on a bike trip from Guilin to Guangzhou. The first 2 days were really tiring because I was really new in cycling and chose the wrong tires, sigh. 2 days ago I changed some parts of the bike and found it saved me 20% of my energy and, makes me feel I am actually not that shitty in cycling, haha. Exciting!

At this moment I am sitting in my college roommate's house in Wuzhou, the border line of Guangxi and Guangdong Province. Wuzhou is really beautiful, locating at the junction of 3 rivers and on a mountain range. Tmw I will be cycling 120km till Deqing City in Guangdong, hopefully I will be home by the day after tomorrow.

In Lijiang

hi everyone,
first of all, happy 冬至

then I would like you to know, I arrived safely in Lijiang now, after 5 consecutive days of bus ride. Right at this moment I just finished my shower and sitting in the dark in a courtyard, silence is the only sound I hear and coldness is the only thing I feel.

I am excited about this trip from Lhasa to Lijiang, 2200km is not jokingly difficult but I made it and I am pretty proud of it. Lijiang is too romantic a place for 2 guys to travel, I am feeling quite shocked when I just came to the old town, miss those days when we cruise in Fenghuang, Xitang and Yangshuo. I will keep you posted when I finally settled down somewhere.

Take care my dear friends

办公室的故事

再一次拜服在庄老师脚下
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我可以向你保证，除了办公室恋情——也就是说在公司允许的情况下合理合法的情侣夫妻关系之外，办公室性爱的数量之多范围之广远远超出了你的想象。这种同事之间的男女关系，还要先排除上司对下属的性骚扰、性胁迫等等非正常现象，也不包括自带男女朋友来办公室里探班式性爱，然后它所表现出来的，是纯粹的性，以及 “春药”的投射，这个我一会再解释给你听，因为每次想起来的时候，我都觉得……我找不到言语来形容这种无趣又绝望的关系。



《英国世界新闻报》上说，越来越多的女性喜欢享受办公室里做爱的刺激——可是我实在也不想拿外国的事来说事儿，就说咱们周围、同事之间的性爱，还要发生在办公室里，这需要在什么心情下才能干出来啊。早先有传说说，公共汽车司机和售票员是最容易发生故事的职业组合，这个有充分必要条件来证明：每天双人组合在一个不甚宽广的相对密闭空间里，旁边不会有其他同事看出蛛丝马迹；两个人上班相处的时间基本上跟家里与家属相处的时间相等或更长（起码这时候都是醒着的）；上班时间上容易产生情绪波动导致冲动，比如冬天早上的头班车或夏天夜里的末班车……这样的情况和这种密切熟悉程度，要不是太看不过去，也就出轨了。同理的，还有航空公司的飞行员和空姐们，他们更方便，飞到外面去还有酒店房间呐。



说远了，这起码还不是发生在办公室里。什么情况会让他们发展到在格子间里、小会议室、多媒体室、前台等等等等地方疯狂性爱，尤其是在没有爱情的时候？当然，上述的司售人员的条件同样适合办公室里的白领们，比如人不多眼不杂的公司部门（我都懒得说驻外地办事处了）；比如超量的加班时间导致的长时间相处；比如太大的工作压力……这个时候，办公室性爱成为最简单省事的减压方式。简直，就跟加班中间叫个外卖差不多意思。尤其是趴在桌子上的是你的同事，你们互相了解对方也知道彼此的家庭情况，了解性格，加上有的本来就是搭档或知己，这是种基于相互有好感的无情性爱方式，想想倒是也很轻松，可是也真没劲啊。凡是可以产生这样的关系的同事，第二天当着众人的时候两个人是绝对不会有什么破绽的，估计假以时日，自己都忘记掉了，觉得大家还是好兄弟好姐妹呢。据说，高强度的金融、IT、广告行业，这种事简直是太多太多太多了。可知，现在的人，压力多大啊。



你以为为什么慢慢的越来越多的公司开始安摄像头和监控了？我告诉你，除了防贼，防自己的员工办公室性爱也是原因之一。因为有相当一部分男职员妄图溜进老板办公室在他那宽大的写字台上和女同事疯狂一把。他不是舍不得出钱开房间，而是，觉得若能以此方式来表达一下“犯上”的禁忌快感，简直是太Happy的件事了。所以说嘛，权利真是最好的春药，哪怕权利的碎片，也能满足很多男性的幻想。



有个满八卦的公司管理层跟我讲，他那里经常汇总一些这样的“丑闻”。一次是两个同事在去下面库房查库的时候突然干柴烈火了，据说场面热烈堪比美国大片。但不巧被一个保安看到，更不巧的是，该名保安很迷信，觉得此事若不说破自己会很倒霉，于是大家就都传开了。还有一次，他得到线报，说食堂里的大厨子和洗菜的大姐在包包子的案板上做了，虽然咱们听得挺高兴，就当是山寨版的办公室性爱段子了，可是该管理层当时脑子里只有一个声音在怒吼：这以后还叫人怎么吃包子啊！

回国了

我本来已经写好了一篇长长的文章，打算回家能用手提时再贴上来的，可是觉得还是应该在此时此刻给自己留一个记录。
我现在坐在日喀则（西藏第二大城市）的一个网吧，窗外可以看到太阳和月亮，屋里很暖，但已经可以感觉的外面寒风凛冽。明天早上我会奔赴江孜，去看看BBC著名纪录片《A YEAR IN TIBET》里的那个民风淳朴的小镇，然后放弃羊卓雍错（因为没有旅伴一起去）直奔拉萨。
昨天回国时遇到很多好人，一起同行，所以18小时的旅程过得不辛苦，我会在以后补上更详细的游记

Tibet finally

I know I have updated that I am going to Tibet tomorrow, so now I will cut my crap.
I am still in Kathmandu and rotting here everyday in a really cheap hotel for just 2 dollars a night with breakfast! From CHD I sent 7 KG books and bags home and from here I sent another 16 KG. God knows how I can carry the load if I am going to take all of them with me.

Yesterday I called my dad and he fully support my decision of going to Mt.Everest base camp at 5200m. Dad, you are biggest support, financially and spiritually. I am glad you are here.:)

I am basically rotting in KTM everyday. My daily routine involvces a 2-3 hour walk around Thamel and 2 movies in the morning or at night. Between all these activities I will go to a tiny local food stall for cheap food. I want to do more but have no more money to spend and no more time, I am regaining my "beer belly". I do think in Tibet I will gain more since I can have more cheap Chinese food there.

measuring Nepal with my feet

Seems that I have deserted here since I started my trip back home, but the fact is of course not. I am now still in KTM with no money in the pocket and so many things to do. Even though I am feeling happy about life here.
KTM is not my cup of tea, but it is still pretty charming with all the old Nepali buildings and stupas. Since I need to save money, the street momo stalls have been my recent pick for lunch. A plate of 10 momos for just 20-30 rupees which is 25-30 cents USD. Tomorrow I need to switch a hotel just to save 50 rupees a night but I am happy about that.
Met the Russian guy who sat with me on the way to Chitwan again here and we decided to do something together here. It's always good to have somebody to talk to:)
Just checked the weather in Lhasa, damn it, -5 degrees celcius.

假想敌（转）

我只能说庄老师察人于微，准到不行，再次拜服！

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我有一个朋友。女的，才跟男朋友分手。其实分了就分了也没什么痛苦的——要是不那么难受的失恋，绝大多数原因是那男的太不是个东西了并且自己尚未陷入太深的情网中不能自拔。

都 市里其实是有一种外企鸡贼小气男的，你就算跟他分手了，他也不过是算算自己各方面的付出和回报是否平衡，他如果难受也是因为觉得亏了。最好玩的是，他觉得 亏的原因还真不是说当时给女朋友花了多少钱什么的，而是觉得自己后来再找的女朋友怎么就那么不体面呢，无论长相还是学识还是赚钱能力都比不上原来那个，自 己一定是当时神思错乱了才会出轨。

嗯…… 这一段开始才进入故事的点。他后来的那个女朋友开始瞄准我那个女朋友了，可能她也觉得那男的干嘛要放弃那么好的女人跟自己在一起啊，再加上那男的平时说话 也不大注意，经常流露出情人还是老的好的那意思，这女朋友就更来劲了，卯着劲儿每天刷新人家前女友的博客，倒要看看她哪儿好了。

后来的结果是，人家写了去哪里吃了饭看了什么书听了什么歌，她也要通通照搬一遍，以为这样那男的就会觉得她也是个有内涵的女人。当然，效果不甚满意，她就能脑残到给人家前女友留言说你劝劝他好好过日子吧，你那篇儿已经翻页了，不是吗不是吗不是吗？

这 当然成了个笑话。不过一留心，敢情日常生活中紧盯着某个女人的博客不断刷新的事情是常见的。我现在明白了一道理，所谓“成功”的女人，一定是要为难女人 的。这也就是说她在俘获了一个男人之后，还要连踩带埋消灭前赴者和后继者，只有打败了其他女人，才是人生最高成就。就我身边的真实事例来看，博客已经成了 女人们斗争的新场所。有第三者成天刷新原配博的，那是为了看看他们的日子到底幸福不幸福，以及那男的到底什么态度以及原配到底多优秀；自然也有第三者和原 配互殴互骂还有亲友团在旁边呐喊上阵的；还有两个情敌间微妙的别苗头的段子——你写了他和你吃晚饭，我就要写和他去看电影……至于大家互相攀比男人、衣 服、生活方式，我都懒得再说了，反正，女人的进步往往是要给自己树立一个假想敌来追赶的，听上去，好被动哟。

我 还有一个朋友，因为她是某男的原配的好姐妹，居然也不幸的被当做了假想敌。在那个女人看来，她居然可以和他们夫妻走得那么近，而且还是很公开的坦荡的，都 是对自己地下情多年的一种反讽。当然，经常看看她的博客，往往可以知道那男人又背着自己给老婆买了什么，以及他在外面拼死拼活她老婆居然在家享福分财产。 恨乌及屋这事也经常发生，于是她愤恨的留言说我的生活方式才不像你们那么装我不要听许巍看葵花喝普洱，可是，这次，她的假想敌也太偏颇了吧，谁关心你自己 回家去喝鲫鱼汤呢？

我还有一个朋友，她男朋友的前女友在博客上幽怨的说，为什么我没有过哈尼这样的爱称。……就，这种心态，真想叫亲友团们扑过去说，还有个“笨蛋”的爱称，你要吗？

一些照片-2

Sunset at Pushkar. I really enjoy that moment watching sunset eating sugar cane, but there is a bastard keeps annoying foreign tourists by cheating them to give diwa to the holy water. pig!
these are what I am coming to Pushkar for. I just left a few days before the camel fair begins, really like watching camels eating and farting~~
a corner at Udaipur, last dinner there. You can see this everywhere
shit, I forgot the name of this fort, we are among the first few foreigners that day. It claims to be the mini Great Wall in India
the Lake Palace under the sun, holy!

I really adore this lovely door and those palm prints, which are said to bring good luck and keep the devil away

Al and Stefan playing Rajasthani music, I would rather say they are just watching
Blue city- Jodhpur, my top 5 favorite in India. A nice fort, a good market, and a stunning view

一些照片

发现很难找合适的题目，把一些旅游时拍的照片放上来好了，原来也不错：）

望，好高的城堡！

在Jodhpur的酒店天台，晚上可以坐在这里对着古堡喝咖啡

Jodhpur清晨街景
这些不是玩蛇人(Snake charmer)，只是古堡里面的工作人员，有人就吹乐器，没人就吹水
象轿，还有大象的功用，用来打老虎！
我挂着的那个东西就是中文讲解机，难怪可以在里面玩3小时！有中文果然学到更多
摆个实物，看看比例
古时国王挂掉，皇后妃嫔要陪葬，这些手掌就是给那些女人们最后留手印的印泥
皇后坐的轿子（打错成饺子），不透风，在里面焖
印度阿伯抽水烟(sheesha)，只是示范而已
到土皇帝坐的玻璃轿子出场了，不知道多少人抬，但是好像很短的轿杆
我在兵器上花了不少时间，很精美，所有的武器装备都有雕花和宝石。那个像锯子的刀可以在刺入敌人以后打开3片，把内脏绞碎

忽然...

当我看到她的space，我有点不相信我的眼睛。我问自己：这是和我一起长大的表妹写的东西吗？我和表妹相差1年多，但是从小到大经常一起玩，一起做傻 事，一起惹大人生气。在我心中，她永远都是小妹妹，一个很傻很天真的天使。我想，在我的脑海里，我的朋友家人给我的印象还往往停留在过去，那些开心无忧无 虑的过去。我很享受怀念过去，也往往被过去麻痹了现在的疼痛，但是当现实排山倒海打过来，我却往往不知所措。就像现在我看到表妹的文章，才忽然发现表妹真的长大了，开始有了自己的想法，自己的哲理，属于自己的快乐和疼痛。

怀 旧是一种无奈，如果没有对现实的恐惧又为何要怀旧？但是我不知道自己恐惧的是什么，是对以后的不确定？对自我定位的模糊？对家人的责任？对朋友的承诺？现 在的我没有一个座标让我看清自己在哪里，要往哪里去，唯一清晰的只有过去，于是我经常怀念过去。我很向往那即将到来的1个月，完全属于自己的一个月，能让 我好好看清自己，想想何去何从，让自己更了解自己。

我可以含笑而走了 I can leave with a smile

I am happy to see this. Thank you everyone for supporting!!
Thank you AIESEC Chandigarh!!

Yesterday we froze Chandigarh in the shopping area, the first ever Freeze in India! Happy to be part of this amazing event.

Chandigarh Freeze

Tomorrow is the big day, since we are doing Chandigarh Freeze. What is Freeze? Check this out.



明天是一个大日子，因为Chandigarh Freeze终于可以按期进行。从看到GZ FREEZE开始，到一手一脚策划了印度第一个Freeze，花了一个月不到，还得到了警察当局的支持，谁说印度没有效率呢？有时是慢了一点。

大家等着看更新吧

我确实走不了

真的不是我不想走，实在是印度的系统太奇怪，当初不想我留那么久，现在又不给我走。

警察局的那个阴阳怪气的大叔把我的离境申请打了回来，说我一定要坐飞机走，不可以从陆路离境，这样我的全盘计划就被打乱了，被迫在昌迪加尔多留一个星期赚机票钱。 我应该会坐周日的飞机从德里直飞加德满都，价钱不贵，5200卢比。虽然不贵，不过比起火车的350卢比真是云泥之别啊。也好，起码不用拿着大包小包上车下车的，到了尼泊尔应该就会舒服很多了。

A Simpler Mind

Alwis sent me a link of 200 Sites that Gives you Knowledge, in which WiZiQ was also listed.

While surfing and taking a look at other stuff on the list, I came across a site called Lookybook, which provides e-version of many picture books for children. Service is really creative, you can view all the books there, but to read in full size, you to pay for it.


I was totally soaked in the books, with simple stories, simple lines and simple minds. Tears nearly came out because I haven't read something so real and simple for probably 5 centuries. I don't mind being a kid and read all these books everyday. The older we get, the colder we become. I don't know since when I have forgotten the dreams I used to have, the wish I used to make and the people I used to be so close to. These little picture books really bring me back to those days without worry and anxiety.

Nostalgia is a patent for grown-ups, but we can still dream right?